I talked about how I found out I was pregnant in the previous post and I also mentioned that I was a little anxious to have found out so early. So, I patiently waited until Week 6, when le husband was finally not working one day and I quickly arranged for the second scanning to be done. Well the doctor said I can go back for second scanning on Week 8 but I knew baby's heartbeat can be detected starting from Week 6, so I couldn't wait further.
Doctor tried to scan from my stomach (which is called Transabdominal Ultrasound - ya, I just Googled this haha) and saw two black spots. So, he decided to perform Transvaginal Ultrasound (the name tells you how it works) for a clearer image and got the above. The yellow-circled one is my tiny little baby and amazingly, there was heartbeat already!!! I was over the moon to know about this. However, the red-circled dark spot next to the baby might be blood clot or fibroid, which couldn't be determined yet. The doctor concluded that I need to take good rest and no heavy-lifting.
I kinda selectively ignored the second part and was very happy that I'm now carrying a baby with heartbeat. Naturally, a few more close friends knew about the pregnancy. Well, I didn't want to hide the news but I think it's not the time to let the world knows about it yet. However, I also don't want to lie to my friends just for the sake of hiding the news. I listened to the doctor and decided to stop gym for a while and continue with my normal lifestyle as usual.
On one fine day during Week 7, I was casually browsing through confinement lady options on Facebook and thought I might be one of the earliest persons to check on this....until I made the first call and got rejected. I tried to make a few more calls and all I got was rejections. What?! I am only 7-week-pregnant and people are booking the confinement lady way ahead of me? Did they just pay the deposit right after they conceive??? Hahahaha. Jokes aside, I was pretty nervous and began to realise that this is a stiff competition! I started to use my network to make a list of confinement lady contacts, contacted them one by one.... Finally, I found one lady who was still available and she was referred by a friend of mine. After talking to her, I felt she's quite nice and she's the one. I made the deposit payment (technically my husband made the payment) the next day and ta-daa!!! One problem is solved :)
Everything was fine until yesterday, I had my first brown discharge. I have always heard that some women will experience this during early stage of pregnancy and thought this might be a symptom that I should be concerned about. I decided to monitor myself before going to see the doctor and tried my best to not be worried. I spent the weekend having fun activities with lil man and attended a wedding too. Then this morning, I discovered a small amount of brown discharge again but I was already at work so I thought it's okay, I shall further monitor. When I got back from work and was getting ready for a movie date with my husband, again, I found some brown discharge and this time, the amount is more.
I was quite discouraged and I also felt worried at the same time. We still headed on with the movie plan because it has been a while since my husband is off. By the way, Coco is really nice! I completely forgot about the whole discharge issue when I was in the cinema. I went to washroom after the movie and there was a tiny bit of brown spot again. When I told my husband. he held my hands and said everything shall be fine. We've decided to see the doctor tomorrow.
I don't want to think too much but I cannot stop worrying and thinking about negative things. It's like I am suddenly drowned by all the negativity in the world :'(
I try not to blame the hormone, but maybe it really is the hormone that I am more paranoid than I already was now. If you are also experiencing this now, you're not alone. Although everyone tells you to take good rest, to worry less, to be positive and some may tell you that they had brown discharge before but everything was fine later on, it is just so hard to be positive.
Alright, I need to try to get some sleep now and see what the doctor says tomorrow. All the best to us (me and baby)!